I almost cried when I pulled this card. Teenage me was trying to be an adult too soon. She had to be. There were things outside of her control that she couldn’t avoid and that was who she needed to be. Right now I have a lot more control over my experiences. I have a lot more say and I can really alter my life in ways I could only dream of when I was a teen. She is reminding me of what I dreamt of and how I can go about it.

Being unapologetically me is the way to give her some of what she is missing. She couldn’t be carefree as I have heard other people were when they were teens. What I can do for my inner teen is to let her be as creative as she wants. To take risks. I am not a huge risk taker. I had to be so calculated in my teens to not rock the boat. Now I get to not only rock the boat but swim in the open seas.

Scarcity Mentality is something I have struggled to move forward from. This is a “skill” I learned as a teen. I needed to do things for others because I was scared of losing them. I thought my value to others was my only value. I needed to remind useful to them in order for them to care about me. If I wasn’t useful to someone I thought I would cease being known as a friend.

I learned much later in life how to say no to people. It’s still something I am struggling with, but I would always say yes to people. Even if I was sick, even if I really didn’t want to do something. I felt that I needed to say yes to other people and ignore my own needs. Saying yes to other people in spite of my own needs was detrimental to my own health. I ended up in the hospital 4 times in my 20s because I pushed myself so much because I didn’t want to disappoint people. I thought that saying no to people and disappointing them was the worse thing in the world.

The imagery of Sacred Giggles reminds me of what I possibly missed out on. Those foundational experiences of being a carefree teen. These are things that my inner teen is angry that she missed out on. We can see it in the clarifiers I pulled.

⚠️Trigger Warning: Candid talk about Mental Health⚠️

A lot of people talk about making their inner child happy and taking care of their inner child, but I have seen very few people talk about their inner teen. I stumbled upon some people who do inner teen work and I have been working hard on my own.

This weekend is one of the best weekends I had with more than one person in a long time. If you would have told me that a weekend with 12 humans who have never met in person would happen so smoothly and without incident, I may not have believed you. What started as a trip to see our one mutual friend to celebrate the return of her brick and motor store turned into the most fulfilling weekend.

Happy Virgo Season!

I have seen lots of opinions about it both negative and positive and while trying to decipher my own thoughts I realized that what other people think really doesn’t matter. So you may read this and be like that woman is NUTS (and I might even agree with you for other reasons.)

I am not the witch that does something on every moon, every holiday, or even every day. Life gets in the way a lot and I only do stuff when I feel a strong calling. This week, the call for me to do a ritual happened to be on Lion Gate Portal Day. Not to toot my own horn, (maybe a little it IS Leo Season) I have great success in manifesting things. Those things are not always for ME but I have had a lot of success manifesting for others. So I thought why not?