⚠️Mental Health Talk⚠️ Inner Teen Work
⚠️Trigger Warning: Candid talk about Mental Health⚠️
A lot of people talk about making their inner child happy and taking care of their inner child, but I have seen very few people talk about their inner teen. I stumbled upon some people who do inner teen work and I have been working hard on my own.
My Inner Teen is angry, confused, and craving to be heard. (Much like I was when I was a teen) Part of my healing journey is to heal all parts of me. As a teen, I was:
Diagnosed as Manic-Depressive at 14.
Overmedicated during High School.
Had the entire world on my shoulders.
I had a doctor take away the manic-depressive label at 25 because I was never hospitalized. Never mind that I told him hospitalization occurs when other people around you think you are unmanageable. Teen me couldn’t afford to be unmanageable to other people. They just waited until she was having a better day.
I was so overmedicated during High School that I was hallucinating My hallucinations were so bad that when I told my PsychPharm doctor, he just picked up my medication, which of course made them even worse. I use to watch wormlike creatures crawl in and out of my skin at all hours of the day. I knew it was just me seeing it so I only told the doctors in hope that they would help me, but they didn’t. So I thought this is just life. Some of us have wormlike creatures crawling in and out of them every day. A supervisor realized that I was overmedicated, fired the doctor, and slowly began weening me off. It, of course, was a task.
I think I talked about how I came to Tarot in another post, but here is a brief synopsis. I realized at 11 that Catholicism isn’t for me and I went searching. I discovered tarot for myself at 11 received my first deck at 12 and then read for myself on and off until March 2020. By August 2020, I started to read for others. The pandemic, like a lot of us, helped me slow down and recontextualize myself.
I have started working on my inner child, like a lot of us. I think I see it about 3 times a day, people treating their inner child, which is fantastic, but what has recently been calling to me is working with my inner teen. She is someone that was still too young to legally make decisions, but old enough to understand that her surrounding situation was fucked up.
When I saw that @moonmamaoracle and @mattalbrechttarot created this spread for September I knew I had to dig into it.
I decided to use a new approach. Pulling one oracle card a day and 3 tarot cards as clarifiers. I have always done it the other way. One tarot card and then three oracle cards. What I like about this approach (that I learned from Sara over at @shopthe8thhouse) is that it goes from being broad to very specific and it felt like the way to do this work. I needed a broad idea of how inner teen me was feeling and they get very specific about those feelings.
I thought I would be able to get an introduction to this work and all 7 days into one post. (HA) These posts will be very candid and might be triggering. Please take care of yourself.
