The Week Ahead starting April 18th
I like doing spreads to get an insight into how the week ahead will go. I don’t know what it is. I love spoilers. Actually, I guess I do know exactly what it is. I was diagnosed with anxiety at the tender age of 5. I need to know what’s ahead so I can emotionally prepare. I need to know what the last chapter of the book says because I need to know if it is a cliffhanger or if the issue will be solved. I am the person that sits watching a movie and will Google the wiki page so I can read the plot synopsis. I need to know what is coming in order to feel safe.
Reading tarot is not so much a fortune-telling device, but it is a guide. I like to have things at least outlined for me. So I can hold my breath as I walk into the unknown.
This week I forgot what my normal spread looks like and I flipped it with the personal week on top and my work at the bottom. I usually concentrate on one thing at a time and shuffle and pull with that intention. I know people who shuffle and then pull six cards all at once. Whatever works for you works for you. Again this is just a guide.
For my personal this week I pulled, 4 of Wands Rx, 8 of Cups, and 6 of Swords.
I need to start letting go. This is a message I got loud and clear with my Full Moon spread, but this deck wants to make sure that I heard it. The 4 of Wands Rx wants me to start to celebrate where I am right now. I have been doing a lot of growing over the last three years. This has been both exciting and scary. There is no book I can flip to the back to see how it all ends! No spoilers for life, unfortunately. This doesn’t mean that I cannot look back and see what I have done. I am allowed to celebrate myself. I can let go of things that don’t serve me and I can move on without people and without feeling bad about leaving those people behind. Oof the people pleaser in me and wanting to take care of everyone is something that I have really been working on. Moving on without people would be unheard of 4-5 years ago. Now I am much more comfortable with myself and I can be like PEACE! BYE! New phone who dis?
For my work week I pulled, The Hierophant, 8 of Swords Rx, and The Empress.
I am a rare Leo who is a reluctant leader. At least as I reach mid-life I am a reluctant leader. When I was a kid I was like “I KNOW WHAT I AM DOING FOLLOW ME!” Now I am much more like: “UGH I know what I am doing and you’re an adult why don’t YOU know what you are doing. Why do I have to show you? I have been showing you this entire time.” I am still being called to lead, which I fight a lot against. The 8 of Swords Rx here reminds me that leading doesn’t make me a victim. The Empress reminds me that I can take care of myself and still take care of those that are around me. It doesn’t have to be one or the other. There has to be a balance. I see you Libra Full Moon.
The overall theme of the 3 of Cups reminds me that even though I am moving on from people who are not growing, who are choosing to stay stuck in the past I have those people in my life who are also growing with me and I can lean on them for support. The support is also reciprocal. I get what I give and I give what I get in return. The relationships that I have now are much healthier than the ones I had created in my late 20s / early 30s.
